finally at long last...

ze hippo is finished!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I woke up this morning

Exhausted… as has been the norm as of late. I think it is due to all the stress around me. At Work, at Home… At work one of my very lovely colleagues had a breakdown and is now on medical leave for the next 90 days… The poor thing he was so sweet… I can not believe the range of effect this nasty client has had on us… incredible… The other stress is a bit harder because I want so badly to help and make things right… but this time more than ever I need to stand back, its so important but its so hard. I feel like I am holding my breath walking on a tightrope… but it is not me… I am simply watching. I have faith… that is a good safety net I hope.

In my haze this morning I found a picture of my hippo painting that I took mid-way through… I was gutted to realise that what I have done now is a step backwards… I was so heartbroken. All of my heart and soul ached to stay home today and work on it to fix it. I felt so helpless… so low. It sounds so pathetic… but its how I felt… Riding to work I looked around, and I said to myself… regardless of work… stress in my personal life… damn it… there are things to be greatful for… I live in an absolutely gorgeous city where the sun shines every day… I have money enough to feed myself and I am working towards starting my own business in the next few weeks. I have a lot to be positive about… and every second I waste on feeling blue or being a big wussy about some silly painting or some stupid job will not get me anywhere…

Thus I have tasked myself to write a list of resolves and do my damnest to stick to them… here it goes in random order

• Wake up and smile… even thought I feel like death in the morning
• Paint at least twice a week... new things and finishing old incomplete pieces
• Go to the gym on the weekend as this during the week thing simply does not work
• Find somewhere to take tennis lessons
• Really put some hard core effort into getting my business off the ground and stop being so scared of the idea
• Ring my mum more
• Set more goals and complete more tasks
• Go back to Spanish lessons
• Take more photos for my blog

On that note here is a pic of me painting… in my wee studio…

WET WET WET...

No I am not going to post about some bad boy band... add a bit of COLD COLD COLD to the equation and that about sums up the weather in London this weekend . But that was no deterrant as I had a fab weekend with all my lovely friends. We feasted and chatted and mostly caught up on the goings on durning the last few months that we have not seen each other... The pictures of the dinner party tell the tale...